Thursday, October 28, 2004
last day of sch.... also my last day of freedom... i think i will take quite a long time b4 i adapt... feeling so depressed... sigh... my rule breaking days are OVER. sigh..... missing 2M already... esp the HOT family.. so sad.... and of course will miss aud.. aiyo aud why must u go... so sad.. didnt cry today of course... naturally... juz felt depressed....i haf been thinking how i am going to coe nxt yr... v scared i cant coped... so much activities... so packed... so tired... mentally and physically drained... adn STRESSED.. oh god cant believe it... aft exams also can be stressed....dropping more hair and growing more white hair...sigh....i have been hoping and hoping that on___dec no one sees me... hehe and sher u better shut up arh... i think i look more idoit and weirder than u k... so un-zlish haha. =)
zhenluan @ Thursday, October 28, 2004
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Monday, October 25, 2004
hmmm... this wk so accident prone man... let me see
1. fri- fell down the moment i held the tennis racket... so damn malu.. almost sprain my ankle.. think pulled somthing...
2.sat- blue black on my last finger...
3.sun- almost fell into the pool, got poked by the damn satay sticks at 3 areas, got punched in the stomach by calsia, fell down while climbing the stairs,hit my head againts the lamp...
4.mon- almost fell down the stairs...
haha.. i am surprised i am still alive...must be more careful... and today a dummy stole my 1st kiss!!!(quoted fr mel) haha... so damn tired... slept like a pig the whole aftnn...anyway tmr going sch liao... haix sianx...hmmm wonder how the teachers "fought" today...haha they all seem exhausted aft the meeting...
zhenluan @ Monday, October 25, 2004
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
feeling damn miserable now and tired. haix... i cant help ___ and____. arggh! why!? i cant juz sit there and do nothing but i dunno what to do! i hate myself! HATE myself. sorry sher. i noe u hate me. scold me all u like... juz so sorry.u can call me to f*** off or wadeva i dun care. juz scold me. please.
zhenluan @ Tuesday, October 19, 2004
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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
finally exams are over. but i dun seem very happy..well not as happy as i expected myself to be... i seem to be dreading something but yet again i am not sure. exams being over means 2 things to me: 1st i can finally go play until i crazy 2nd: its time for me to______ . i suddenly realise that how tired i really am. today no mood to go out at all. really really realy need sleep. but i guess i cant win "queen of pandas" lah. haha. as for my exams.... i screwed up for all of them.. as usual. haix...very disappointed in myself. but well what can i do. i also think that i am not myself lor..argghh so irritating. i dunno wad is wrond with my stupid self. arggh. dunno wad to say. there seems to be a lot of uncertainties revolving around my life.
zhenluan @ Wednesday, October 13, 2004
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